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Name: Alex
Location: St. Louis, Missouri, United States
Gender: Female
Interests: God and his plan for my life and the lives of the people around me. acting. singing. laughing. guitar. sports. learning about religions and ministering to the needs of my neighbors. teaching. serving. a good book is always welcome. other than that just hanging out with my friends being random and having a blast.
Expertise: Well besides making a fool out of myself i enjoy laughing reading and manipulating... in a good way.
Occupation: Retired
Industry: Entertainment
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  geeohde32
Member Since:
3/30/2005
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| i didnt die. ive just been busy. too busy to use punctuation besides periods. not that i was ever fond of it before.
life is crazy and i miss you all. i suck.
you try working 40hrs a week and going to school full time and still having a social life getting sleep maintaining good grades and updating a xanga. something had to give. oh well. i will be back though. sooner than later hopefully.
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| i hate the binary. i know i've already made this clear on more than one occasion but the more people that i check out at work (and i mean ring up not check out like size up) the more hesitant i get to use gender pronouns/sir/miss/ma'am.
being gender QUEER i don't care what gender pronouns people use or what people's perception of my gender is, but for people that aren't queer or aren't in the same boat as me, when it comes to their sex or gender, i don't want to be the person that cannot drop my assumptions and causes them to feel uncomfortable or self conscious or some how less than due to me words or actions. 99% of people that come through my line don't know that i am queer. 99% don't even know that i understand the term transgendered or the difference between trans and gender queer or gender variant or gender neutral. i don't want anyone that may fit under the trans umbrella to believe that i am somehow putting them into a box or seeing them as something they are not.
how do i handle it? i can't very well ask them what pronouns they prefer, i will only see them for 4 minutes. and what if they aren't trans and are just a masculine woman or feminine man.
i hate that feeling. the feeling that i'm adding to the bigotry and the divide and the seclusion.
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| another random post that is a bunch of fluff and stuff.
so today marks two weeks working at a local grocery here in the lou (and by local i mean a family owned regional market in MO and IL). i don't hate it so i guess it could be worse. i work with some odd people but the customers are even more odd. i'm enjoying the hour or so my paycheck last after i cash it. : / seriously i blew $200 in less than 20 minutes last thursday. this week im resisting the urge to buy $200 worth of music.
my summer goals have gone out the window thanks to work. ha i've been slacking bad and havent run in at least 2 1/2 weeks.
i cannot stop falling in love with new music. it just keeps coming to me and i cannot listen to more than a minute of a song before i have this itch to change to something else. and it isn't that i'm not enjoying what i was listening to in the first place it's just that i love music tooooo much. i have 1450 new podcasts that need to be listened to. a list of 500 random songs and 49 soon to be 52 albums to buy. 9 books that i'm yearning to get my nose into a queue of 107 movies to watch and a tivo full of stuff that i need to catch up on before it starts deleting itself to record new stuff. 583 new fics to read and 50 shades of sun to get because i am pasty white like casper.
my real to do list is 32 items long. my desired to do list is over 2000. i need more coffee and less sleep and more hours to my day. where is superman when we need him to fly around the earth backwards to stop time (or go back in time).
my life is so crazy that my best friend, who has been in spain for almost a year got home a little under 2 weeks ago, and i still haven't seen her yet! and we didn't even get in real contact till today when we texted compared to our week of phone tag.
i feel so scatter brained still and i cant make anything stop long enough to breathe let alone finish something in one sitting.
it took me 3 posts and edits to finish this and it wasn't even really complete thoughts or anything substantial.
i think i'm past overload heading for breakdown.
at least i'll have good music to keep me company.
cheers
edit: to make matters worse amazon has a good selection of 5$ albums this month. granted it is only july 2nd but i want them now. i've already waited long enough. boo | | |
| wow im real good at this challenge thing. : ( | | |
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